I’m fucking bored. This weekend I watched 4 movies. George, Chris, Chelsea, and Jesse are my saviors right now. Without them I’d go insane, though I hate being completely dependent on just a few people for things to do. Living in Pike was like living in a moving breathing organism. There was always something happening, I didn’t even need to think about going out to have fun, or to come up with something to do on a weekend. It just existed. Now I sit in my apt most of the time on my couch just wondering what the hell to do with myself. I mean I could easily leave Iowa every weekend and find stuff in Indiana, Minneapolis, or Chicago even… but that won’t solve the problem; it will just help me ignore it. So that leaves me sitting here with idol hands.
I just registered for a beginning Mandarin class. Hopefully it’ll stop me from getting shot when I go to Cambodia, though this is obviously wishful thinking. Unfortunately I don’t think Cedar Rapid’s local community college will offer a class in Khmer (Cambodia’s official language) Also I started investigating volunteer opportunities in CR. Donating money is nice, but I’m not in a position to donate a justifiable enough cash to be worthwhile, instead I will offer my priceless services to the community. What these priceless services are I’m not exactly sure… What I plan on doing is helping out at the old folk’s home or the Boys and Girls club, and – or to start tutoring at a near by high school. I’ll show those young kids that Calculus is the cool thing to do in HS Sadly I think I could totally pull off looking like a senior in High School.
You know this will sound bad, but I just don’t know how to make friends anymore. I’ve gone so long living in forced social situations where making a new friend take 5 minutes. I thought work would be like this, but the people I work with are just very different from me I guess. Its not that they are bad or anything, but there is just a huge age gap between me and most of the engineers. There’s one engineer who is about a year older than me, everyone else is about eight years older than me. I’m really racking my brain to meet girls, but I’ve spent the last 4 years isolated from them, that I just don’t know how anymore. I think if I could just meet and really get to know one or two they would get over my initial first impression as a hyper active short guy. Who knows…