Time seems to fly when you sit around doing homework all night on a Saturday with your insomniac friend mike sitting next to you playing Baldur’s Gate. Today is or I guess was Valentines day. The ultimate you suck cause your single day. You see it everywhere you go on this day. Couples going out doing things enjoying each others company, and you can’t help but feel jealous. For those of you who don’t know Alexis and I broke up. Which is a great thing, because I wasn’t very happy, and I know I’m the kind of guy that will tolerate any situation regardless of how I feel. Not that there was anything wrong with Alexis, she was really wonderful person, but our personalities just didn’t match, or at least that’s how I felt.
After any break up you begin to wonder who you really want to be with, and I honestly don’t know. I can’t think of anyone at the moment who’d I’d even consider going out with. Which really sucks. I feel like I’m supposed to be striving for that relationship, mimicking everything all my other friends have, but at the same time I don’t care. Perhaps this is because I’ve never really known what its like to truly care about someone. I do know I act like a jack ass to most girls, which isn’t because I try to be mean but because I’m pretty shy. By jack ass I mean I usually ignore must girls around me.
I’ve always tried not to have a specific type of girl to be looking for AKA I wish she had blonde hair, and was really smart, and likes south park. Its bad to restrict yourself to such a way. I know that I have to be attracted to her physically otherwise there can’t be a good relationship, since a key component of dating is the physical aspect. I don’t even care about how smart she is, since intelligence can be measured in so many ways its to hard to define someone as smart. I guess I’ll never really know what I really want until I meet the girl I fall head over heals for. The only problem then is will she feel the same. Nothing worse than feeling like you met the person of your dreams and she not caring.