I’m writing this after basically going radio silent on Election Coverage shortly after the Georgia Polls closed. I heard a few slightly not good comments about the turnout in Georgia and I started having panic attacks. I had the realization the feelings I was feeling were not healthy and also not actionable. Its no like knowing if exit polls are good or not will help you figure out the outcome of the election. So in order to stop myself from deep diving on minute details for the next lets go with six to seventy two hours (depending on how close the race is) I just put my phone in airplane mode and walked away from the internet.
Its tough though, I ran to get dinner at the Thriftway because no way did I have the attention span to cook, and even there CNN was on (averted eye contact) and I overheard a guy explain red mirage. Which of course made me spiral, is he make an innocuous comment about what the red mirage phenomenon is, is he seeing one happening in Pennsylvania, is he bad at understanding expected votes and just being wrongfully optimistic when in reality the Republicans are winning?
So, I am home now. You kids don’t care about the election at all which is just the bees knees. I thought if I wrote about my feelings, I would feel better so maybe that will help? I’m feeling anxious. I clearly don’t want Donald Trump to win. I think he was bad at his job, and nothing good will come from him being in charge. How permanent is the nothing good its hard to say. How bad will the bad be also hard to say. The only thing he cares about is himself, and people praising him (usually the wrong people) so policy goal wise its all very nebulous. In the end of the day I am far more impacted by the Seattle City Council, who’s names I don’t know, and the Washington State Governor, and my own state representative (who I also don’t know the name of) So maybe my hyper focus on the Federal level and its terrifying impact is over blown.
Honestly, I just don’t want to know Trump exists anymore, I don’t want to hear him speak, I don’t want to hear people argue about him, I don’t want the news to cover him endlessly. If he loses he will just go away. He may even face some actual consequences. I guess we’ll find out when I finally turn the spigot of the internet back on.
*Edit* Trump Won /Sigh