I’m so tired, I don’t know why I am so tired. Somedays I feel so zonked that I just peace out from work for an hour or two and take a nap. Maybe I’m sleeping poorly, I do have to wake up nightly to pee which is super lame, or maybe I’m burned out from work who knows. Either way I keep trying to prep for the oncoming exhaustion which I know is a fool’s errand. Nothing prepped for Teddy, nothing will prep me for you. Your mom is sooo pregnant right now though. Like to the point that her only answer when you ask her how she’s doing is “Big”. Though she still manages our daily trudge up the hill with only being a little winded. She also still manages to go to class every week and keep up with her HW, I have no idea how she has the will power for this but color me impressed.
Spanish Inquisition your Crib is officially built, your room is way to small, and I am sooo sorry that you will need to suffer this till at least 2032. Hey, maybe we can get loft beds for you rand Teddy and things won’t be so bad. On the plus side we have two other giant living spaces 🙂 I did start getting a ton of anxiety about sexual assault last night. I was watching Lessons in Chemistry and it opened with basically rape to the main character. Like, I conceptually knew this was a bad thing that happened often in the world, but never quite connected this could happen to my own kid. So, you know we’ll have a lot of talks about what is appropriate behavior from others, when you need to call people out, I am going to make you fierce, fierce enough to jab someone in the leg with a pencil if they assault you. It’s quite terrifying to worry about. Society makes being a girl way harder than it should be, but it just lends itself to our family motto of “Fuck that noise.”
My manager at work has started talking to me about the idea of becoming an EM myself. Its mildly terrifying, a few years ago it was something I really wanted, but my previous manager killed my confidence in that department. Now he wants me to try, and he’s even recommended it to my skip. I have some feedback about not playing favorites, being a better listener, dealing with ambiguity, etc, etc. Its really scary thought picking up all that new responsibility, but I do think its something I “could” be good at. I guess will find out where I land in the next decade.