Wow how did I go this long without updating??? Probably cause after the last checkup we saw a heartbeat! Well, we saw your heartbeat again! Well… technically your mom saw it. I wasn’t allowed in to the Office because of COVID. Hey fun fact you were conceived during the most insane time of the last 100 years. Well after we saw your heartbeat, we were given a clean bill of health and sent home. You were perfectly uninteresting which is the exact thing you want to hear when seeing your new baby. I guess I didn’t see ya, but the picture of you was basically an undecipherable dot. So, I felt feelings more at a sense of symbolism for your existence than actually seeing you.
After that the doctor was like you guys are clearly always freaking out, you should just come in every week. Though after waiting a week, we were like… we are crazy, but we’re not drive two hours (Our main exit out of West Seattle is annoyingly closed) in Seattle traffic to be re-assured of something we actually didn’t need to be reassured about. So we bailed on your last infertility clinic ultrasound and waited till we saw Kate’s real OBGYN in week 9.
Week 9 we saw you. The doctor told me I am way too on top of all this and probably should ease off. Your heartbeat was a delightful 172 and you continued to look like blurry squiggles. Though this time I did see your heart beat live! Still seeing no hearing. Week 9 you are the size of a cherry. Week 11 where are now? You are a lime!
Your mom has been so sick the entire time she’s been pregnant. Like throwing up all day every day sick. Last Thursday I stayed up with her while she was throwing up every 10 minutes till about 3am. We honestly were scared we’d need to take her in to the ER for dehydration. I ended up driving to the 7/11 to buy Gatorade and panic bought 7 bottles of all different flavors so not only could she hydrate but get those precious electrolytes. This week we are doing some genetic testing. So far we’ve only gotten back STDs results and we are luckily free of those. I think Kate had tested positive for that we would have had a lot more psychological damage than health risks. Genetic testing, I think is the last huge scare till it gets closer till your actual birthday.
So I’m doing my best not to spiral by looking up everything on the internet but it’s really hard. Also another fun fact my skin has broken out in to a full body rash. There’s a theory that’s its happening because I am so stressed about your existence and the health of you and your mom. Someone told me that having a child is like opening your heart to the world. You will worry about that child from the day its conceived to the day you die. I never thought much about what it would be like to be a dad. But now that you exist, I can promise you one thing its full of crazy irrational anxiety about your health and wellbeing lol. And on that note… I got some Netflix to binge.