To be popular!
I’ll help you be popular!
You’ll hang with the right cohorts
You’ll be good at sports
Know the slang you’ve got to know
So let’s start
‘Cause you’ve got an awfully long way to go:
In my head I’ve always wanted to be popular. Was I ever? In HS I had a big group of friends, lots of parties… well Catch Phrase Parties with lemonade and pizza. There was no sex or making out. Drinking an drugs were a no go. Though lots of fun and I’d like to think people knew who I was. I still dressed terribly, I reeked of smoke (thanks dad), we weren’t poor but there were certainly financial aspects in play too.
Fast forward to college. Year one I made great friends but was utterly rejected from my fraternity. Well utterly might be too strong of a word. I missed the vote by 2 or 3 people so out of 100ish folk 10 didn’t want me in. Though fast forward a year and I sailed through. It was probably for the best since it created a level of self awareness I didn’t have before when I first started college. Taught me to tone down my more annoying excitable self. After that it was three years of creating amazing friends and planning epic vacations and parties. Though even then I was still in arguably a nerdy fraternity in a nerdy college. Dressing myself was still a challenge (but hey at least I finally owned jeans) girls still mostly out of the equation. I blame a lack of opportunity on this one. Though there were definitely situations I could have improved on.
Next step Iowa! Here I started creeping in on the “in” crowd. Having a little bit more money probably helped. I kind of dressed myself better. I even met some girls 🙂 I created a strong group of friends. Though admittedly I think we leaned towards the nerdy side still… There were lots of video games, but we did have fun parties. Though even then I wasn’t a center of attention. There were lots of people to hang out with but I wasn’t constantly being invited to crazy events. Maybe the root of this was a lack of availability? Iowa wasn’t exactly bustling with things to do. Though I will say dating Beth, life also seemed to be full of adventure.
Ok fast forward to Seattle. There’s really two periods of Seattle. Brittni and Post Brittni. The Initial B-Phase life was full of excitement and activity but it was always with one person. Though that one person was incredibly cool and gorgeous so that’s kind of like being popular. I mean I did date a former cheerleader after all 😉 The the beginnings of PB – Phase were rough. I came to the realization I had very few friends and was virtually a shutin. Though in the last year and a half this has changed immensely. Now my world feels like I’m the center of attention. There’s almost no peace, tonight I got home at 10pm and was super excited for the down time. I dress way better (well when I feel like it) Money is less of an issue than it has ever been in my life. The girls in my life are also pretty cute, and the parties are frequent and awesome!
So am I popular then? Maybe… does it matter? probably not. Am I happy? (I paused to think about this as I was writing) I’d have to say yes. I don’t think I’m the same kind of B-Phase happy, but I’m still happy. My life is full of wonderful people. People who like me, who want to spend time with me. Which is just so massively important to me. Stuff meh, but quality experiences with people I care about, that’s just the shit. My only complaint is I feel a bit stretched. Like not enough jam to cover a piece of toast. That’s totally a LOTR quote right? I’m indulging in this constant stream of activity because of a fear of missing out or no longer getting invites, but I’m also sacrificing depth and long term activities. I can’t take an 8 week improv class if I ever want to do a one off trivia night at the same time. So here I am. Rambling per the norm… Though hey, this is my blog I can sound conceited and ridiculous as much as I like 😛
PS Just finished Daredevil on Netflix, Just F’en awesome!