Ok first things first Britt broke up with me last November. She told me “She didn’t love, and she knew deep down in her heart that should never love me” So yeah… Maybe that killed my motivation to write about my life? I had a really tough few months and didn’t even lift my head from the dirt till February. Though apparently she was unphased since she started dating someone three weeks later. I feel relatively fine now except when a random picture of her comes up on my news feed, and I still obsess on occasion. But I always obsess my brain his hardwired to not let things go. I want to write about whats going on in my life, but I don’t want Britt crowding the top of a long post. So this will just sit here by its lone some, dealing soley with relationship angst. I have stayed single since Britt. I tried really hard to find someone after we broke up to fill the void. My current first date count is up to 27 since November. None have quite filled the void. There were a few close ones, but I tend to lose interest. In the last couple weeks something clicked in my head and I started being ok with being single. I disabled OkCupid and Match. I started focusing on improving me. I have read some Seduction-esque books. Not creepy like you are thinking. More like hey this is how people who get intimidated by woman easily should approach girls. The one I am reading now is called Models and its fairly good. Still struggling sometimes about mattering, and feel like that year with Brittni meant nothing to her with how easy she disposed of me. Luckily my life is full of new friends who are amazing and my weeks are constantly filled with fun!
