So with the recent break up of Joy, I’ve started re-evaluating my life. While dating Joy I think I was more ok with living in Iowa. Now that I am single, it makes me realize just how much I want to leave. Currently the major thing holding me back is school and that finishes in August.
So where am I going next? I don’t know. I love Rockwell, despite the existing slow down I am suffering. I want to move to Colorado so badly. I’ve been reading craigslist ads constantly lately. I have this annoying sense of anticipation that I’m suffering that I can’t act on. My friend Mohling is moving to Auroa next week. I am ridiculously jealous of him.
I know my personality type and the anticipation for Enneagram 7’s is extremely painful. So I think I need to start to distract my mind at least until August when I can legitimately start looking around. Its nice though I think a lot of my friends are in a similar state as me so we can all talk about our restlessness.
Currently have two trip I’m working. Germany in the spring, and wine country in August. I think if I focus my energy on those I can repress the pain restrictiveness I’m feeling right now.