So I have a problem. I almost always feel nothing. Apparently when something becomes an obligation I know longer enjoy it. So if I ever feel like I should do something, I’ll feel nothing but apathy. I will still do it, but I will lose the passion that could ever go with it. So grad school started off as an interesting experiment, but it quickly devolved in to something I should do. Now its nothing to me.
Yoga was amazing, but then I missed a couple classes and felt terrible about not going. I then realized it moved from being something I wanted, to something that was an obligation and it was no longer fun. So I want to transition back to that happy place. I have no idea how to do this.
So traveling. This might be the one thing in life I can consistently find happiness in. Making Beth happy used to be one of the major things that made me happy, but that had to change for obvious reason. So that leaves me with Traveling. Its one of the few things in my life that feels like a get to do, instead of a have to do. I think I really love the spontaneity in it.