It seems like the masses are migrating to college, all my state school friends are there studying away, and my vast number of rose buddies are moving back in to the Pike house. While I sit here, all I do is feel sad that I can’t share in their same experiences anymore. I mean yes I’ll be there for the token visits periodically for the next several years, but besides that I am no longer apart of that world. The college world is so dynamic, when you leave High school that world stays pretty consistent, your home more than likely exists there regardless of where you move to post high school. Most of your friends will stay close to home as proven by my last Cottage Grove visit. It’s a very static environment. College on the other hand is so dynamic. No one sees college as their home, and when people graduate, it’s not like they will get pulled back to the “College Town” for anything besides homecoming. Right now I can still visit and know tons of people, but in three years everyone I know now will be gone. There won’t be any real reason to go back.
So this leaves me here. Now that the school year is starting up again, I really feel like I’m an adult. I don’t get to play at the bars on weekdays with my best friends. I don’t have any reason to stay up till 3 am doing homework, aka screwing around. When you get older time accelerates because only large milestones become relevant. It seems like the last 7 years of my life could last anyone a life time. The insignificant events were a big deal, the significant events were an even bigger deal, and all of these happened multiple times weekly. Now life is going to work, wait till the weekend, hopefully do something on the weekend, then repeat. Blah. I said this several years ago but I feel like I am living my Blah life right now. Chris tells me to look towards the small things to find happiness, play video games, workout, find the joy in the insignificant. Unfortunately I know deep down, that none of this will truly make me happy beyond a few hours. I need to find more meaning, some goal, something challenging. On the plus side I’ll be in Terre Haute Thursday Night till Monday afternoon, so I will indulge myself in the joys of the insignificant all weekend.
-Halfcent out.
P.S. In case anyone hasn’t realize the finding meaning theme has and will be extremely prevalent on this Blog until I actually find meaning in something.