So I’ve given a lot of thought about love and relationships lately. I guess it sort of happens when there are two marriages in your family in a week. When I was younger the only thing I could ever think about was having a girlfriend, actually it was one specific girl that I always wanted. The problem was I felt I was never good enough for her. She was perfection to me, and there’s no way you can bring yourself to that level, when you put someone on a pedestal that high. So I spent most of my high school wishing and wanting, something I shouldn’t have been doing. It wasn’t until I got to college, that I realized what I was doing, and how it was ruining any chance I had at any girl.
It took a lot of soul searching this year for me to become happy with my self. Instead of trying to find the perfect match, or the soul mate, I have accepted stuff like that just happens, there is no way to force it or encourage it. So I vowed to myself never to have crushes, or to desire one particular person. If she’s interested, I’ll be interested, if she’s not so be it. I’ll be happy either way.
People always ask me if I am dating anyone, and I always say “no, but it doesn’t really bother me” Its funny but 90% of the time they respond “oh I’m sure you’ll find the right girl one day” Its almost as if its wrong to be content just being single, and not worrying about finding that next girl to add to your list. I know my friends all mean well, and I love them for caring the way they do.
It would be great to have a girl friend don’t get me wrong. I’ve never had the opportunity to be in a long relationship, but I can imagine how great it can be, but I can wait. I don’t fear rejection anymore, I don’t see any girl as too perfect to approach like I used too. All I see is an opportunity for greatness.